I Just Want To Know WHY??

What does it mean when everything is going wrong? Like a row of dominoes, one trouble keeps coming after the other, as if they are in some sort of agreement to make me miserable. I'm sure that God has a plan for me and this all has meaning, but I wish I knew what it was now. It would save me the grief. All of these horrible things that keep happening, progressively get worse, but they all surround this great experience I am having in Arizona. It is a learning experience on many different levels for me. Learning experiences are a part of life. You take the good with the bad and chalk it all up to great learning experiences.

Along with the learning, I am also experiencing some serious growing pains.

Although I am, on the outside, very calm and collected, there is a whirlwind of emotions inside of me, that I choose not to expose to anyone. First, Wednesday, I was in a horrible car accident. I am blessed to still be here and able to share this story. The car was totalled and I luckily had my seatbelt on, so I escaped with the very minor injuries of a left knee contusion and some muscle strains in my neck and back. I was t-boned by a speeding driver with no license, insurance or registration, and who could barely speak English. Yeah. The car was in the shape of a U...and if I had someone in the car with me, they may not have survived.

Prior to the accident, which has lost me valuable time on my internship, I had mentally draining family drama, car issues-i.e. rentals and flat tires-and adjustments on the job. I am starting to feel a little negative about this experience right about now. I am thinking, these series of unfortunate events are God's way of telling me something. I'm not sure what that may be yet. It can only get better from here, right?